Ecstasy

The ecstacy of success
Still evades me far
List of my achievements
Are extremely meagre
For I have nothing
To be well proud of
And claim my place
On the very top


The pangs of failure
Scorching my heart
Are what I carry along
And cant do it long
I can’t help grieving
Don’t want to be a sloth
The pain of defeat is
What makes me go on


Is it the question of strength
Or a matter of will
How hard I try
Try to succeed
Desperation within me
Eager is my want
I need to struggle
To lament no more


For victory is
Still a very distant thought
Soon I shall be something
Someone worth respect
Thousands of leagues apart
Above the common
Yet I shall be working
To scale heights yet unknown

Behind the Veil

I can feel where you are
Laughing behind the veil
Brewing up plans
To unfold chaos and
Break the peace when
I have to leave

Those eyes of malice
I had once seen
Threatening to ruin all
The twinkle it bore
Showed that here was one
With nothing to lose

Heart filled with hate
Never heard of love
Only quest of yours
The burning desire
Power and more power
Corrupting at your will

Your kingdom built on lies
People fooled and few aware
Of what’s all around
I bring my legions of truth
And fight we shall again
As ever before
Free the people I will
Though it may cause pains
And you’ve left stains

I build with love and truth
A fence to keep you out
But you always manage
To find few flaws
But we both know
You and me shall live forever
You cant hurt me
And I wont kill you
For my beauty shall
Lose its shine without you

The Pretty Eyes I Can Read


When a broad smile is on your face
It seems spring has arrived
The world is so alive
I try to double your glee
Make you laugh and smile
Nothing rejoices me more
I like to see you smile forever
And spread joy all around

I see fear in your eyes
Don’t worry I am here
By your side and always
I shall give you warmth
Comfort until you are at ease
I am here to protect you
I shall always be at guard
And see that nothing threatens you

When you are in pain and look away
I am hurt to see it in your eyes
I shall be there on your side
And I’ll soothe you to rest
There shall be no more pain
I will make sure of that
Grief shall be a stranger to you
For I cant bear to see you in

Your pretty eyes betray your love
Awkward moments when you are shy
When his name is mentioned
The joy when he responds
The anger when he denies
Anticipation when he makes you wait
I will hear your joys and woes
I will help you reach him

Your teeth wrenched and fists locked
Eyes flaring and I come to calm you
But you don’t want to
I will pick a fight for you
Risk everything I’ve got in it
I’ll see that you come to no harm
I shall be at war on your side
If you don’t rest your wrath

When you work over something hard
Are stuck and disheartened
I will arrive to share your burden
Be with you to help you
Take the strain you cant bear
I will give you support
I shall give everything I own to
See the pride of success in your eyes

Hangover

Stuck in crowded places
Moving through empty spaces
Floating like a ghost
Jumping groups, dodging troops
Not finding what liberates
Nonsense notions
Blank Actions
Talk and talk what I know not
Everything is touch and go
Occasionally I wakeup
Random feelings
Berserk reactions
Am losing grip
All reality is unreal
Too deep too much pain
Sift through life
Search for love
I Search for success
And resulting peace
But the paths well known
Dodging me
Find an escape hatch
Live in fear
Fear of rejection, of connection
And not living the dream
Vicious circle of self pity
Heartache lives on
Feeding itself


Living in stark phases
Alternating
Impenetrable now vulnerable next
Affable then Repugnant now
Sometimes stubborn yet so impressionable
burning in the fire
I fear maybe myself
Where is the power to dream
And the tiny cheer I lost
I slip again
Fight to restart