Companion

The stagnant showering clouds
Drift away, of sudden
The pleasant winds of change
Kiss my face as they blow
Waking me up to a new day
Bright and blossoming
The darkness is past
So is the uncertainity


Everyone’s rejoicing
The lovely lovely change
Infectious smiles all around
Lifting the spirits unaware
How joyous it seems
With bliss all about
Like never before seen
Wishes of all come true


But I havent felt
The change though I
Can sense it happening
All my friends have
Found companions
But it seems to me
I am all alone with
No one right beside me


The pain I feel
Of loneliness in a crowd
Is way beyond me
Jealous I have become
Of those I meet
Smiling away plenty
Each smile so rich
and I havent any


When shall this end
Eager thirst of mine
For company of heart
Mind and soul
For now I go on
The sullen gloom still on
Listening to the tales
Of lucky ones around me

MINE

Why do I feel like what I do
I sit here and brood
Want to cry my heart out
Why am I so attached
To something so inanimate
It pains to hurt something
I possess, I own, I use
It belongs to me
But I am its slave
On its behalf I cry, I die
Is this love, is this care
Or insanity, I am unsure


Why cant I say, “So What”?
I don’t give a damn”
I find it hard to part
Throw away something once dear
Old it has become, beyond use
Yet I treasure, as if it were gold


Everything I own has life
Memories they possess translate as my own
Sometimes I feel they live through me
I thrash the finest of them
The pain this causes gives me solace
There are more to come
Much more to endure
So better break the bonds
Before bonds break me

Round and Round

There there I go again
Round and round
Making no way
Down the drain found
Remnants stale, There there
Jump around, make no sense
Fight a bout with unhappiness
Take a punch, lose the round
Take more in helplessness
Pain tingles up my system
Enjoy the numbness
Insecure and loose thought
I shall lose and why not
What have I done not to

Rationale is a crazy thing
Pride and survival go along
Kick me in the gut, wake up!
See sense and make believe
A burst of strength
One last shot and don’t give in

Doors

I am here standing
Staring down at the black wall
Just a foot of lease
Holding firm, contemplating
If to embrace the ethereal sea
Just a small step away
From the path of no return
Could turn out to be
The greatest adventure yet
Unknown is always beautiful
I have avenues still open
Decisions not yet made
Though painful I go back
To the infinite possibilities
Disappointments, joys at large
The adventure waits
I wont fear its way
When I happen to cross
For now I shall turn
Leave these behind
Have got amends to make
And doors to knock.